Many people tell me that for my age of 21 I am very in tune with my emotions, moreso than most my age; they say it’s admirable.
I developed this skill through giving myself time. Not just allowing myself to feel emotions, but to understand them. In doing this I am able to understand other people much better too.
It is not an easy skill to develop – therapy, when I was in it, definitely helped me acquire and develop this need to understand myself and my emotions. Initially I was focusing on the cause of my emotions and then I moved onto understanding them and managing them.
This is something, in recovery, that you need to do for yourself. If you do have a therapist then I am sure the both of you have spoken about the worry jar, or a thought diary.
When I met the peak of my depression, I wrote a screenplay. When I was in therapy, I had a thought journal placing my thoughts under the ‘thought’ category and then using the ‘fact’ column to rationalise my thoughts/emotions. Now, I blog.
Blogging helps you and myself.
Don’t allow yourself time to just feel an emotion. Think about the cause. What happened that caused your mood to deplete? Why do you think this is? What can you do to avoid or manage this next time? Maybe get a thought journal? It helps to put things down on paper and look at it. It can often help you see how you don’t need to ‘worry’ about that thing.
It’s one thing to be aware of your mental illness. It’s another to be aware of what triggers it and what you can do to manage it and start feeling better.
Don’t be afraid.
Happiness is your birthright.