It’s important that when you’re suffering, with any sort of mental illness, you try your best not to push away those that you actually need; I believe it slows the process of your healing down quite significantly. I know certain mental illnesses actually alter your behaviour and cause you to purposely test and potentially break relationships.
However, if you find yourself being associated with people who do not understand your mental illness and offer no attempt to, I personally believe you do not need them and you’ll be better off without them. It’s important to surround yourself with compassionate people who can keep up with you and not make you to feel bad about your suffering.
But there is a difference between you feeling bad about your suffering and being made to feel bad about it.
Sometimes when you’re suffering you can feel as though you’re annoying the people you love with your complexities and mood changes, it’s important to let them know how you feel and take their reassurance as honesty. Know that you’re not a burden to those people because if you were they wouldn’t be standing beside you, supporting you. When you’re suffering you can often feel negative thoughts towards yourself and be very self-critical therefore you believe that people around you don’t really care or you’re bringing them down.
Sometimes you might find that someone cannot be around you, as you do bring them down; it’s no bad reflection on you, or them. Some people are just at a moment in their life that they feel they are not strong enough to help anyone else yet.
When I was in the peak of my depression and anxiety my mood was very temperamental; sometimes I needed around me 24/7, other times I would ignore them for days or weeks. But overall the friends who stood by me were a massive contribution to my getting better and healing.