A panic attack is a hard thing to describe to someone who has never felt one before.
An anticipatory sudden rush of heat, sweat, frantic breathing and dizziness – you don’t know where it’ is coming from, but it’s certainly present. The brutal nature of a panic attack is it causes you to panic further. It can cause embarrassment, sadness and shame thereafter and can then trigger further panic attacks in the not so distant future.
Many years ago I once had 6 or 7 panic attacks in one day and they could last what felt like 5 minutes. As a result of this, as a temporary fix, I was prescribed on 80mg of Propranolol and of course it helped the effects of my anxiety and panic attacks – it did not get rid of the cause of the issue.
It has been a while since I’ve had a panic attack, but today, whilst sat at my desk at work. I felt one coming on. I knew exactly what it was, I suddenly became very hot, sweaty, agitated and fidgety, my breathing became frantic, broken and my eyes teary.
I suddenly became very conscious of my surroundings. I realised I was sat in the office. Surrounded by people getting on with their work. I thought to myself ‘do I leave, do I tell someone’ and my mind became very busy causing me to panic further.
I told myself ‘no, you’re not doing this. Turn the computer screen off. Sit back. Shut your eyes. Breathe.’ And so I did.
And the panic attack never came on.
I stopped it in its tracks.
For the first time, ever.
It’s important when you suffer with anxiety and find yourself having sudden panic attacks that you have the awareness and the compassion with yourself to accept the situation for what is it and find your own way to deal with it.
Stay still. Stay compassionate. Focus only on your state of mind, your body and your spirit.
I found being aware, compassionate and straight-forward with myself more beneficial than tablets ever were.
We are in control.