Every day with a mental illness is another day of recovery.
It is a constant cycle.
With depression and anxiety specifically, one of the hardest things to experience is the shift in mood and the lingering emotions. One of the most difficult things to accept is that you are not in complete control of your initial reaction to emotional distress.
Your initial emotional thoughts, feelings and physical reactions to an experience are uncontrollable. For a second you can
be okay and then a person could say one thing or you could remember one detail and it can crumble; your heart rate increases, your body heats up, your eyes form tears and you have lost control.
You feel as though you don’t react to things as ‘normal, chemically balanced’ people do and all you want is to be ‘normal’ and ‘balanced’ and to stop ‘over-reacting and to just ‘not care’.
When you are trying to manage and control your moods and emotions you can panic if you feel any emotion other than happiness. You think you are relapsing if you respond to emotional stress but it happens to all of us. Every single one of us. Mental illness or not. We all respond to emotional distress in very similar ways.
So you are ‘normal’. You are responding to a difficult experience as any other human being does. If something happens that makes you feel extreme anxiety or sadness do not think ‘I am stupid, normal people don’t act like this’, allow the initial reactions to flow, then sit back and evaluate. Ask yourself: ‘why am I responding like this? What is causing me distress? Why is that happening? What can I do to ease this emotion? How can I help myself?’
It is simply about trusting yourself and having faith.
Everyday is different. Some days are easier than others. Be kind and gentle with yourself. Give time for your own emotions to run their course. Give time for yourself to heal.