After my overdose I heard many things from friends and family, but the two things that I heard and never forgot was to ‘pretend nothing had happened and that I would never be forgiven for what I did’. I do not think I will ever forget hearing these words said to me after I thought the only way out of my pain was to never come back into the world.
5 years down the line I think back onto the comments and think about the pain the people who said them must be in; to deny that your mind can have such power over someone, is nothing but pure ignorance. Ignorance is not bliss.
Today is World Mental Health Day; mental health, raising awareness and supporting people who are in a lot of emotional pain is something I will never stop being passionate about.
The mind is a very powerful thing, we like to think we have control over our emotions, but our mind has control over us; despite what people may think. I did not choose to become so depressed that I thought killing myself was the answer. And that is what some people sadly fail to realise.
It saddens me that I exist in a world where many of us have to convince someone that mental illness is more than just feeling a bit sad. It saddens me that we live in a world where people think you can just ‘switch it off and get over it’.
But there are also so many people, speaking for those who do not yet have the courage to speak for themselves. Let’s all do this, for one another. As people.
Just as you do not choose the colour your eyes are when you are born, we do not choose how our brains initially respond to some kind of emotional distress.
There are many factors which contributed to the trigger of your mental illness
- Your childhood experiences
- Severe trauma
- What is happening in your life at the current moment; such as social disadvantage
- The positivity of the people around you (energy is infectious)
- Drug and alcohol misuse (something which I feel people may abuse as a way to deal with something traumatic within their lives)
It affects 1 in 4 people in their lifetime. It can affect anyone at any point. The brain is a very complex organ, it can have positives and it can also have negatives. The world we live in can trigger issues with mental illness at any point. We should not have to experience it, to understand it. We should all just understand that it’s very much a thing.
People are not being dramatic. People are not just unable to handle emotion.
People in the world right now are feeling emotions, thoughts and feelings so intense it can cause them to crumble and make them unable to enjoy life.
So before we judge the homeless on the street corners, the people who are self-harming, the people who find it hard to get out of bed in the morning – realise the pain they must be feeling, ask yourself if you’ve ever felt extreme emotional pain.
Let’s unify. Come together.
Afterall we are all just one kind of race, one kind of being – human. We all have the capacity to feel emotion.
Happiness is our birth right.
Look after yourself and all those around you.
It’s not one man for himself. It’s one for each other.