Deep inside your mind is an idea that drives you to destruction. Holding your heart, squeezing it so tight, it causes you to ache. It makes sense, this pain. It feels like you are supposed to feel this way and that you always have. Destruction makes sense. Bring this world to an end. You long for a disappearance but you and this pain have become one. Pain is you, you are pain. Two separate entities. Merge. To eradicate pain, you too must go. The only way out.
the ability to reason kills pain of all sorts.